Sunday, July 10, 2011

Scan Results

As expected, my scans in June indicated that my tumor is still stable.  I am very grateful for that and for the relatively normal life I'm able to lead, but I can't help but feel a little disappointed that it is still there.  I sometimes feel like I don't want to stir things up again because I feel fine and am not having any symptoms or problems.  I'm being treated by one of the top carcinoid specialists in the country, so I trust his approach.  It's just that the approach is to "watch and wait."  Sometimes I wonder what exactly it is we're waiting for.

The excitement of the first few scans after treatment, when we thought that maybe the radiation might have caused the tumor to shrink, has definitely worn off at this point.  For now, all I can focus on is the fact that I am really fortunate to be here and to be alive, with just a small tumor that doesn't cause me any problems or interfere with my daily life, but as time passes I can't help but wonder how much longer before the scan is no longer stable.

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